Hello Love

This panic attack is killing me
Little change of the message style and I feel abandoned I feel like Arizona hell is going to happen again, like he is going to relapse, freak out that things are unclear in our lives and he is not ready for marriage or smth along those lines.
I hope I’m just making this up, I’m pretty sure we are on the different page from two years ago
But that nightmare won’t leave for good… No matter how secure and great this relationship is right now, even a little hint on the past mistake scares me to death and makes me doubt my trust….
Cole I really love you and I will try to work on it…